Wednesday, February 19, 2014

THE BEGINNING IS NEAR

It has been one whole of a great week. I have started my RA thingy eventhough I just helped my friends since I'm not officially RA yet, But I've got the offer letter already and just need to get a few things done before I'm officially employed.

Another one of the best memory for this week happened on the weekend and it because I played "paintball" for the first time. For those who doesn't know what paintball is, it is a game where you used a modified air gun (not like nerf)and it shoots paint bullets inside a plastic-liked cover. It was absolutely painful when you get hit by the bullets. I have got hit several times and they left marks. The most painful was when it hit my thighs. It was like being stung by bee, but didn't feel any burn after that and it still hurts until now.

The place where I played the game was not like the normal paintball field. Normally, people play paintball in the open field arena where it is the size of probably half to three-quarter of football field and there are giant air bags as shield or place to hide and take cover. But the arena I played was kinda natural arena, it's like garden but more to like used garden like in the movie "Rambo" or like one of the Chuck Norris's movies where he fought in Vietnam if I'm not mistaken. Here you have banana trees, piles of planks and tires as cover instead and it looked completely like a real battlefield for me. The arena was not so big probably about one-third of football field but it sucked all my energy running inside it. Moreover, I thought the gun was light since I've seen someone playing paintball in TV could run and aim so easily, but I didn't really know that the gun was actually that heavy (probably around 2-3 kg). I mean the gun itself was not heavy but it was the air tank that made it like carrying a laptop in a war. Besides, I wore a mask and it was hard to breathe while I was running and under pressure. The jacket also disturbed my movement since it was quite stiff, so it limited my movement.



The first picture is the normal paintball arena, the bottom one is the arena where I played. The guy inside the picture is not me. But he is one of the MVP player.

The game was great, my friends and I played four-by-four on each side and played 5 games with a break between games or someone has no more bullets or needed to add more air into the tank. Each game has 2 rounds, meaning you have to collect two points by winning 2 rounds. Each game has it's own mission and the whole games took like 2 hours. My team was kinda expert eventhough we are just starters and the other team has an experienced player, so it was kinda hard to decide which team was going to prevail.



The picture above was taken before we play the game. The aftermath picture can't be shown due to the maturity content and disturbing images such us broken bones, blood, lots of blood and wounded people. I look a bit stuffed there, but that is not actually like what it seems to be (second from the right). Eventhough I've gained some weight (8 kg) during the hiatus from 65 to 73 kg, My body is not really that big because it is the jacket that make it look like I'm fat. Besides I do have chubby face, even when my weight was 60 kg (excuses but true).

The atmosphere of the arena was pretty intense even before the marshal started the game. I felt nervous since I've never hold a gun after I completed my primary school. I mean I was once a guy who was one of the fearsome kids when it comes to this shooting games. It was not because of my skill but it was because of the gun that I used was somehow had a great shooting power. It could reach up to 50-80 meters. They used to call me "The Sniper", my best shot was 30m head shot(because the gun was heavy, hard to hold). So back in the day (primary 2 or 3), around my neighborhood, my friends and I used to play this shooting game using the air gun(not paintball gun) with a plastic bullets or we called it pellets(not sure the spelling is correct or not). We played it like almost everyday after the school has ended. So we gathered in front of my house and decided the teams. It was like playing hide and seek where one team is hiding and the other team is seeking. But this time we used air gun and need to finish the game by shooting the other team and see which of the team members stand the last. But after a few years later those guns were banned, but then my friends created something more extreme. They used candy/sweets cover bag and tied with rubber bands on both ends. It's like sling shots but we used our two fingers instead of tree branches. And you know what, we used stones as bullets. yes, stones. Probably half centimeter in diameter. Those stones would absolutely leave some marks if you get shot. And after the end of the game, we all always looked like we just had measles or chicken pox, I'm not sure which one is more suitable for such a mark but it's either one of them.

Back to the story

So before the game was started each team needed to go to their bases and then the marshal asked us to get in position. The moment the siren was on, my heart beat faster, my breathing rate increased and I directly run behind one of the covers and I said.

"Dayum, What am I doing here? I've retired from this and this is not my stuff anymore. I wanna go home. safe me god!!!"

It was seriously a terrifying situation I can say, but still better than being chased by a dog. I saw my team members were running towards the enemy base, they took several shots and took cover behind tires and trees. Seeing them made me like I was a complete coward, I wanted to help them but too scared to get shot, so I need to man-up and think that it is for the future of my team, I wont let them down. Then, I took a deep breathe, gained some courage and a few seconds later, I stood up, looked around for any target and once I saw someone I just started shooting. I shot whoever I thought was my enemy. Then, I hit one target and immediately took cover and then the marshal said GG (meaning the game is finished). It wasn't so bad ,my team won the first round and nobody in my team got shot. I was pretty impressed by my team's performance, they did well except for me. Honestly, it felt like a minute in that game with all hiding and shooting, but it was actually took 5-7 minutes to finish that round (not sure which one took me longer, hiding or shooting). My energy was depleted as the game ended. I literally showered in my own sweat.

According to the first game's result, we all can see which team was going to be the winner. Yes, it was the other team who won the overall games. My team only won the first game and lost the rest of the games (I think we were lucky that time). I didn't really know why, I mean I have totally man-up on the rest of the games. But you know, who cares about the results. The most important thing is we all had fun and we all did.

Becareful of what you're about to read, it is all just come from my assumption, nothing is real.

There was a rumor saying that the inventor of flappy bird is dead in suicide. But before that I've heard that he would delete his masterpiece for good. But the day I heard the news and the day he said that he's going to remove his game is the same. So it's kinda like one of the Frankenstein movies where Frankenstein created a monster by combining human parts from several corpses and after a few weeks the guy died besides the monster (I don't remember the name of the movie). The monster killed several people and created chaos around the town, same goes with flappy bird but it didn't kill people (Im not sure). At the end of the movie the monster run from the town and stayed under the iced cave carrying his dead creator. So here, I assume that the creator of flappy birds has the game in his phone(coz he was the creator) so the story is kinda repeated in some kind of different ways.

BUT, before he died, he had brought down his legacy to the world, because It seems like there are games following the same format as "Flappy Bird" one of them is called "IRON PANTS". This game is more crazy than Flappy birds. The inventors did really put so much effort to make the game ten times harder and ten times larger in size than flappy bird. I believe that he is one of the apprentices of the flappy bird's inventor. He has the blue print of flappy bird typed of game. I played the game for ten minutes, the best score I got was only 4. The game is pure evil. You can't even blink when you're playing the game. Because once you blink, it's GG. You really need to play this game in a remote, isolated and quiet place, where there is no disruption.

I don't know why but somehow It is easy to get new friends as well as lost some friends at the same time nowadays.

HOW??

Easy. Like and comment on your friend's status or photos and you will become best friend forever or don't do anything on your friend's photos or status and you will become enemies or at least your relationship is loosened. About the past 5 years of my observation, I see that people love to communicate via apps or any chat services(text messages mostly) on their gadgets. They tell all their stories by just simply texting without knowing that the person on the other side is paying attention or just simply replying according to the situation(well, I did some when I'm busy). It's good to strengthen the relationship, but sometimes it becomes a bit weird. Because last time, I was chatting with one of my friends via "watsup". We chatted for quite a while (around 2 hours), we laughed and shared opinion, even there was a little debate I can say.

Here is the funny part.

A couple of days later, when I had my lunch, this person just sat beside me and we started talking about stuffs. After a while he suddenly talked about the thing we chatted a few days ago and somehow I talked back the way I did it a few days back. We did exactly the same as in the chat(all discussion, opinion, even debate), but this time didn't take a long time. Then after the conversation was over, I started thinking of why did I repeat the same thing. So I just simply forget it coz it probably just a coincidence (true story). But the thing is it happens almost everytime. So I was like, why did I talk to someone when we both know how this is going and how it is gonna end. I mean, it is just simply a waste of time. If you want to make sure a certain point then it's okay but here I did exactly the same as when I had the conversation via message/texting (Have we all experienced this?or It is just me). So I don't really know whether I'm a retard or just simply don't use my mind. Because there are a lot of other things that we can talk about instead of repeating the same stuff.

The worst is I think people prefer to chat/communicate via apps even when they are in some reunions with friends. So during that reunion all we do is just "texting with friends" or "congregation texting". I mean last time, during my stone age, when we were gathering for some occasions we only talked among us. We completely forgot and ignored anything and only interested in what was there. So each of us focused on someone who was talking or telling stories. Sometimes things I can say get better when we started to debate on something which was not actually matter. But it was somehow and somewhat just simply beautiful(you know the intensity of the situation) and somehow we wanted more. But now all these apps in gadgets have disrupted this harmony. I'm not saying gadget is bad. But it is the timing of using it sometimes just don't really come in the right time and place. I mean I am honestly annoyed when I'm talking to someone and suddenly that person gets a message and start replying all the way during the conversation, with a smile while replying. If it is from parents or something truly important than I can tolerate that. But if it just a regular "hi", I believe the person on the other side can wait for the reply. If the stories is not interesting then at least listen, don't just simply put your mind away and start chatting/texting to the person who is not even there. I don't want all of your time but respect is what I expect. DON'T YOU??

I realised that I have received some comments on my previous posts saying that I should have put pictures in my blog. I didn't know someone read my blog and I am grateful for that (crying with tears of happiness) . Well, this time I did but maybe did not really do it well cos I'm too lazy tired to edit and since the new system of blogging now is different than 2 years ago, so need to learn more all about the positioning and stuffs. BTW thx for the constructive comments.

Funny sayings "Everything is happened for a reason, but sometimes the reason is because you are retarded"

Saturday, February 8, 2014

NEW THINGS

Well, well, well it's been a while since the last post. Recently, I've been practicing ad*be after effect, it is a software for editing images and movies and can also add effects. Im doing it for fun coz I have nothing to do (still waiting for RA and master thingy) and I love editing and put some effects in pictures or movies with something cool, like adding lightning or energy ball or maybe teleportation and duplication of things in a movie. I know it is kinda childish, but I just like doing it. Im not a pro yet in this field and if there are levels from beginner to expert maybe I am in the level of baby, where I couldn't really remember all steps to create one effect eventhough I just created it a second ago. I think my short-termed memory is kinda bad. coz I'm pretty expert to forget things I just saw, heard, read or did.

Sometimes it gets rude when comes to meet new people. You know when others introduce their names, I can easily forget names in a blink of an eye and to cover that, I pretend I did not hear the first time they mentioned it. But it is different when it comes to something important. I mean like somehow and somewhat my brain can decide (this is true) whether a particular thing is important in the future or not, like names, phone numbers or car's plates. If it is important I can easily remember in a split second and without even trying to remember it. I can just simply say it or look at it and can somehow absorb and keep it in my mind, but if the other way around, I will forget at the moment I get it. The worst is sometimes my brain decides to forget stuffs during exams.

Nowadays, people have been posting something in 9ga* or even f*cebook about a game. A game that is believed to be created by the devil himself. A game that has caused chaos around the world, with many casualties and people have gone missing due to this game. I was shocked having heard about the effect of the game. Because of this game, some said that they don't want to live in this world anymore, some said that the game is a cursed and some said that if you can complete the game (which is impossible) you can achieve anything in this world and will be given a reward as the toughest, the most patient and the most anything a gamer or normal person can ever achieve.

So after hearing all this, as a noob gamer, I really wanted to see how hard can this game be. So I downloaded it. The first time I saw the size of this game I was shocked, speechless and stunned. How could you not feel this, when you realise that the game which has created such a chaos is only less than 1MB size. I was like "ok, I can do this, it's probably like any other games". So I played it for like 15 minutes, aiming to score at least 100 but these are what happened.

0-3 mins trial: "Ok, relax, this is the first time, need to get used to controlling and timing, I can do this"

3-6 mins trial: "Damn, I almost got 5. Next time will be better"

6-9mins trial: "Yes, finally I got 7, a bit more playing will get me to higher score"

9-11mins trial: "Oh thank you God, I made to 13. what a game"

11-14mins trial: "why,why,why!!! why can't I get more than 10 now. AARRRGGHHH!!"

14-15mins trial: "Screw this game. Why did I download it in the first place"

last trial: "Ok that's it. GG"

That's summarized everything that had happened. I punched the wall 5 times and kicked the wall 6 times and threw my phone on my bed after playing this. Thank God no casualties. I still have the game in my phone just in case I want to play it again and test my perseverance. Oh ya by the way, the name of the game is "FLAPPY BIRD". It is downloadable in android or I-phone I think. enjoy the game and may the force be with you.

ps. Play safe and play the game in a place where there are no hard parts. Try to cover every inch of the place you play the game at with soft materials like cloths or styrofoam. Stay in that room every time you play the game and make sure no one's around to avoid more casualties. Don't play the game outside or you will lose or break your gadgets.

A few days back I visited several other blogs, including those in my friend list and I have realised that there are several different things about my blog than other people's blogs. These differences really caught my attention so much. Most of them, no, all of them have pictures in their blogs and also they posted about their achievements. Well I did the same, but the kind I posted them are different, mines are not really formal I can say and have no pictures with 100 percent words (I mean the new posts). For those who posted about information regarding stuffs I don't really mind and I understand why, since they want to make everything clear.

Ofcourse their blogs look amazing, I envy them all. But do they know that when they post a picture of themselves, and they delete it for some reasons, it is still in the internet? I mean the picture is not totally gone?

How do I know that?

Well, someone told me(this guy is expert in computer stuffs), when you enter a website and if you realise in the beginning of the address there is a word "https". This someone told me if the word "https" is slashed or when the letter "s" is missing (http) means that the website is not safe. from what this someone said, it might contain viruses and stuffs related to it, or the website contains or offers something that may allow them/anyone to use all information (including words, sentences, even pictures) the users put into it. The best part is they can use any information and manipulate/exploit them to whatever they like. If one day we find our pictures spread out in the internet doing things we did not do, or our pictures have been edited into something weird, we as users can't sue them, since it is stated in the terms and conditions, and we just checked/ticked the "agree" thingy since we were too lazy to read (same goes to me).

To make sure go check on goo*le and type your name. You will see your blog pictures are there and probably mixed with bunch of other pictures that have the same name or similar title or anything related to your name or email address. Now delete one of the pictures that you have posted in blog and try to check again in goo*le. It probably goes the same way with f*cebook

I just do not want this to happen. I mean like it's not that I am fat and ugly being insecure, but precaution is better than cure. In this case is before someone does something bad. If words maybe less matter since they are opinions. Ambiguity in sentences can be clarified by asking that particular person about what the sentences are actually meant. But pictures, this is serious in modern day. There are millions of people who can easily edit whatever pictures using several different softwares. Some of them are really good, coz the result looks real. I just do not want when one day someone told me that there is, nope, are weird pictures of me(probably naked) all over the internet. Can you imagine how many people could have been blinded after seeing them. The last time I showed my picture (dressed) to my friends, they were all showed a disgust-faced (you know your face when seeing something ugly or disgusting). That one I was dressed, what if naked? probably worst than cutting onions. Those pictures will probably melt your eyes.

Here I posted a link and is from my high school friend. check this out if you're muslim or probably interested in Islam. All are good videos here teach us to become a better muslim or better person at least. it is in malay not english. http://cocombee.com/

Funny sayings "no one is born to be a loser, but not in this world, deal with it"