REASONS OF ALL REASONS

Well here is me again. welcome to my new blog with new stories and experience being shared here.

As you all readers can see, I have changed my blog name from "drugstore" to "A.L.I.E.N"

People must wonder why I changed it. Before I tell you the reason behind this, you all must also have been wondering why my previous blog name is "drugstore". Why is that the word drug there?? and whats up with the store, It's not like Im selling or giving information on drugs or anything. Why didnt I give something fancy, like "diary" or "stories" or maybe "Galiologist"(this one kinda cool). Well as what people said everything has its own reason, so do I. I don't know whether I have told you this in my previous posts but here is the true reason.

So it is all started 5 years ago. In one beautiful morning I was bored and remembered that someone asked me to create a blog. So I just made one. But then the problem came a rise. What should I name my blog. FYI I am the type of a person who is absolutely talent-less in giving a name or anything random. Coz everything that I do must have at least a reason, can be stupid or good. But there has to be a reason. So then questions came into my head.

"What do I do with the blog?"
"What should I write here?"
"What will people say about me later on?"

I did a pretty long and serious thinking about this (around 20 seconds) and I said in my head

"Okay, this blog is going to be all things that happen in my life good and bad. People have their own stories so here is mine"

Suddenly, out of nowhere the word "drug" just popped out in my head and thought that it would be good for my blog name. Then another questions arose.

"what if people ask me about the meaning behind my blog name. what reason shall I give them."

Then here was where my brain started to work. So basically what my brain did tell me was since the blog is going to be filled with all things that will happen to me, it is going to be my new space to spit out everything in my head which which makes me feel relieve and I think has the same meaning as medicine or cure. But since my life can be good or bad so the word drug is better than medicine since drug also can either be good or bad. But after I got the reason I have another problem, that it is to short. So I just simply put "store" at the end of it. The word "store" here is not like "shop" but more to like "put". So yeah I guess that is it.

Ok now lets off to the reason why I did change my blog name.

This time the idea came to me around 3 days ago.

One night when I was about to sleep, as a daily routine I always think about many things that are happening in our world. I have been doing it since I can't remember when and as far as I realize one day is different than another and is normally random. But this one night was somehow I thought about human. As far as I know that we are here in this earth for a reason. Naturally for good reasons but surroundings, ego and lack of education somehow make us go the opposite way. We are here to manage the earth into a place where everyone can live comfortably and peacefully. There are cause and effect rules which we have to follow, so knowledge is required in order to discover new thing including reducing the bad effect and increasing the good effect. That is the job for human, and goes for me too. So we need to discover more about the place we live in now and there are places where human have not reached there yet. The point is we will eventually get to the place, where it is strange to us and the place and environment itself also feels the same way with the presence of us. By the time we get there, we can either destroy it or take care of it and try to learn from it.

From my point of view, the way I see human is like traveler, we like to go to places where we have never seen before and get advantages from it and advantage can be anything. So from that I got an idea to change my blog name since I have started to write again. At first I wanted to put something like "traveler" or "wanderer" but those names are too general and I wanted something that really can express our nature and habit as human being. We have the capability to destroy or build. Then again my brain started to function and the word "alien" just popped out. Somehow I think again it really suits us well since like we all have seen in movies aliens come to earth mostly to destroy us and only some that take care and learn from us. So I guess from there I got the idea. Im not saying that my blog will be filled with full scientific discovery, but instead by anything that have been discovered by me. The dots between each letter just for decoration and to make it looks longer.

I recently just had a reunion with my old friends from my high school. Why did I say old is because I did not really see them for like 4 years even though we are living in the same city due my uni schedule did not really give me free time to see them and sometimes it is the opposite, when I have the time they don't. I feel grateful for that, since I did not realise that I still have lots of friends out there that I have completely lost contact with and we could still talk like usual when we met yesterday. Just simply wonderful.

There is a saying that "your mind is like a parachute, it works best when it is opened".

That is true but there was one night where I have a thought about this saying. I am not sure that it is just me being close or simple minded or probably other have ever had this thought as well. It is sure that if you have open minded you can see things or problems from different points of view and get a way to solve them. I am not sure whether it has anything to do with our intelligent. As we know a parachute does have strings that are attached to the bag so when it is opened the strings give it stability to support us to control air as we fall. But, we also know that mind is abstract and has no support. The only thing that can support our mind is our beliefs or rules that we trust and it acts as strings or support which represent the string of parachute. If we have this support (beliefs or rules), can we say that we are being closed or simple minded? Because if mind really works like parachute, means that it needs support, coz when parachute is too opened(you know parachutes have like dome shaped when opened so absent in strings it loses the dome shaped), instead of saving us from falling it will only kill us abit longer than having no parachute. So I guess mind works the same way as it needs supports. But now the question is how open can our mind be.

Well I am a little bit confused about this mind thingy. Here is a short story.

A few weeks back there was a campaign where people are giving free contraception thingy (you know what I mean) during the AIDS day. They said they did this to prevent the virus from spreading out. I had a little conversation with several friends. I asked them about this campaign and whether the way to prevent it is suitable or not. The results are some agree, some disagree(including me), some just dont care about this.

Here are reasons what people said

Those who agree "It's good because it provides safe intimacy/adultery", "Some people can not afford for marriage yet so giving free *thingy will atleast solve the lust with their partner", "some people are addicted to it and simply cannot stop so it is a good programme"

Those who disagree "it's just simply supporting free adultery", "It wont stop the virus from spreading out but will only slow down, not very effective", "This campaign might be interpreted differently by children if they are not properly educated by parents"

But from my point of view this just means they support people to do free intimacy or adultery. Well for me rather than giving free of those *things which will only reduce the possibility, it is better to educate our society properly. I know it is not easy and there are some people addicted to it but it does not mean that they cannot stop. There are ways to solve this problem such us marriage. I believe there are therapies for people who are addicted to it. Just like those who are addicted to drugs.

Funny sayings "everyone has a purpose and role in life, perhaps yours is watching yo*tube"

GUESS WHO'S BACK!!!!!!!!

Yup here I am, filling this blank blog again. After sooooo long being absent from this cyber world.

You all must be wondering about my return. I give you a hint. Have you all watched batman returns? I guess you have. The reason is the same.

exactly, you are absolutely correct, I have nothing to do nowadays, actually I have, preparing my master proposal and waiting for the research assistant approval letter. I waited for like forever since December til today actually. Btw happy new year to all.

Just want to continue telling the world what/how/why my life is.

From the last post, if im not mistaken it was before the start of the 4th semester. Well things went pretty well actually in my 4th semester, like my grades, social life, finance. I started my fieldwork training on the 4th and 5th semester. What I learnt from that was actually much more useful and easier to understand than study the whole 3 previous semester. I mean like things get pretty easy when you have it in your hand rather than in your imagination. All terms that I have forgotten from my previous lecturers have suddenly come back and since I saw/felt/tasted what the terms are actually meant, I understood them even more. feels like the life after you just free the burden in the toilet. its like you have been given a second chance to live. Suddenly you feel the word "YOLO" does not even exist anymore. superb. I have also touched/hold/smelled/rubbed 15 kg of pure gold.

I repeat 15 KG OF PURE GOLD!!!!!!!

Can you imagine that, this nuisance boy like me could touch that kind of expensive material. If you dont believe me look at my previous FB PP. You can see there is a very happy, cute, handsome guy holding 15kg bar of gold. When I was holding that gold bar, I felt like the richest guy in that room, even for a couple of seconds.*what a wonderful feeling.

As some of people in this world know that music is part of my life. Again my team was trusted to present for my college and took part in one of the most prestige event in the uni. That time we got third place. well Im proud actually since we only practice for 2 weeks. Besides that time my team had different members than the previous one. I believed we didnt really strongly bonded that time, so the music we produced didnt really come from our heart.

My final year was not very good, disappointing actually since my grade dropped on the first semester of my final year. I did not really know why. I studied the same way as the previous semester and believed I did the exam well. even I have less credits, supposedly I could grade-up but things went the opposite way. My FYP did not really brought so much problems since I got and settled everything according to the plan. But why/how/what made my grade went down. I was shocked when the time I received my report card. I could not believe my self what I saw that day and things get worst when some friends suggested me korean movies.

Every night I watched one korean movie and cried every time the movie ended. Most of them have bad endings, I dont really know why must one of the couple dies, its like the korean producer does not really like to see the audience smile. Why dont they put the one that dies is someone that is not really in the movie story, like maybe the person who's just passing by, or maybe the maid, or the security guard, atleast not the main lovers. Coz, Its just too sad seeing it ends like that. You know sometimes I wonder, that probably, the movie is based on the producers life story. maybe, who knows. Back on my uni life. So to overcome that I reduced the time I go online, even I cut my social life abit and stop several routine activities in my second semester. I turned out better and I get fatter(is that even a word), but still the result was below my target but I tried my best. I failed to grad as A's student.

Well FYI I just graduated from my undergrad 3 months ago, I felt absolutely nothing during the day of what people called "convocation". I didn't really get it why everybody was so happy that day (ofcourse there were other guys who looked worst than me, i mean their face expressions, must be the nerd type), I mean like everyone who enters university will eventually graduate right, Im not saying that Im not grateful, but it just you know, the real life starts after that and it is worst than the uni life.

I changed the template or layout. The old one kinda lame.

Friend said "Success is moving on from failure" * kinda true.

Funny sayings "Don't be deeply sad of one failure, you still have plenty ahead"