"Everything is related"
That quote I heard somewhere for over a decade ago has been playing in my mind from before I was born til recently. My brain will automatically functional when I sense something unusual or unique. Usually I end up making a theory, which has no basic at all. Just simply my thoughts and opinions. But somehow it could be apply in the real world. I can't remember who said it, but I believe that it has something to do with everything. Everything means everything, the whole universe. If one single thing is disturbed, it will affect the whole entire universe, even a single cell or bacteria.
Simple example I can think of is me. My present will somehow effect everybody's life, either good or bad (mostly bad), directly or indirectly. Directly means you've heard, saw, smelled, touched, bit, kicked, punched me. Indirectly means you have never known me at all, not even heard my name. If let say, I wasn't accepted as a student in a particular university, someone might have filled the place. This someone probably has applied to other university and probably he applied for other courses like biology or even medicine. Since this person has filled the space that was supposed to be mine(if I wasn't accepted), he would abandon what he had applied before and someone must have filled the place. This someone might have applied to other courses as well and this chain-liked thing continues. What I'm saying here is everyone has their own role. Bad or good will affect other's life. Where and what you are now might have pros and cons for other. We don't know. What you have achieved now might have crushed other's people dreams, vice versa.
So what can we do?
Do your best. Don't cheat or try to be a hero. Who knows that your failures might cause someone to discover the cure for ebola or even Aids. Our failures might save someone's life. Be positive. Just let it go and move on. There is no coincident, everything has been planned.
Somewhat it can also be applied to things we do. Simple example like the way we eat tells us about how we deal with matters. So I've been doing this unintentional research for almost 5 years. I've observed people who chose the food based on their own preferences, whether amount or what they wanted to eat. So based on how they can finish their food I've concluded that, people who could finish what they have chosen and taken, are normally people you can rely on, simple, trustworthy, they know their own capabilities and limits. Although sometime a bit pessimistic and kinda have their own preferences on almost everything (simply said not flexible). On the other hand, those who couldn't finish, are optimistic, easy going, ambitious, and are very flexible. They can almost do everything that is given to them well, but somehow and I don't know why, they tend to be a bit ego. I mean once they get what they need they don't really care about the others. They might help you but most of them just barely help. But those are just my observation nothing is right, everything is permitted.
What start will end. Everything started 2 years ago. It was my friend introduced me to you. At first I was not really interested. But my friend told me more about you. Until one point where I could not resist and curious about you. Although I hesitated to make a move, but in the end I took my chance to know you better. Then I realised that you are somewhat different. As time passed by, I know your pain and struggle, I know how do you feel about everything. I even searched several pages about you. But that what makes me want to know about you even more. Your steps and ways to solve your problems. You sure have taught me a lot.
Finally, I understand.
But sure time does not allowed me to learn more from you. About 6 months ago, you have shown that you are about to leave. The signs were clear. It just a matter of time before you will finally be gone. It sure a sad thing, but I kept my eyes on you. Since you could leave anytime soon. I patiently waited for you once a week. Sometimes even longer. At the same place and time. Just to see you. In the end, the inevitable has come. It sure was beautiful and sad at the same time. Knowing that I will not be seeing you again. No more your stories, pain, struggle and jokes. But I'm glad to know you.
Thank you for everything, you will be remembered and missed...
Naruto...
Yup, that's about it. The ending was perfect I think, unless there is this guy "shanaro" who is still mysterious for me. I was expecting that all characters are in one picture together. But the writer had other plan, which was perfect.
Recently my Fa*ebo*k account just got intruded by I don't know who. Btw it happened trice already, the first one was I think I forgot to log out at the library's computer, nothing was serious since this person just updated my status, but luckily I deleted it after getting more than 40+ likes and comments, Next day went to that very computer and logout. Second one didn't really remember where/why/how/when but on my FB wall there was someone posting about po*n. I don't know whether videos or pictures but someone wasap me in the middle of the night asked me that what I was posting was true or not. Since I was just about to sleep and my phone was 3 meters away from me and no one would ever contact me at that hour unless something urgent. So my message tone rang, I checked the message. I rushed opened my FB using my phone. But too slow. So grabbed my laptop, turned it on and I saw the post. I just deleted it and thanked the guy for telling me that. Third one, I just woke up, checked my tab, and got FB message from a friend. This person asked me why did I still online at that hour(1 am). So basically, that time my phone screen was blank coz I remembered it was already in low battery so I didn't use it. My tab was being charged and I remembered close all things before plugged it to the charger. Everyone was already sleeping before I did all of them, So I was the only one who still awake. Lastly, I did all of those at 11 p.m. and probably slept at 12 a.m. Then, who the heck was using my account? So, if you see me online around midnight, it might not be me.
I hope you can see this, but I know you wont.
Well I didn't plan everything perfectly, I know I made mistakes, I thought the second one was going to work, but it just the same as the first one, even faster. I didn't know how to handle matters perfectly nor keeping them safe. But everything was not solely my fault. I tried my best, but you've changed so much until one time where I couldn't bear you any longer. It's gonna be hard for me, like what I did to the first. But I've learned my lesson. I know that bearing with my attitude was not easy. Thanks for the tears and joys. Thanks for listening to my past, problems and stories.
Farewell..
Vony..
My dearest phone..
Yup, the day this post is posted was the last day of my second phone's service. 3 years she has been with me and now can rest in
I'm gonna take literally one year break from my postgrad thingy and going back to my home country since I really need somekind of break for a while. I've lost several weights and probably gonna get those back during that break. So in the future don't get confused when you see someone looks just like me, but a bit fatter, it could be me.
Good bye my second home, see you in one year.
Funny sayings"People are like farts, either loud but nothing or silent but killing"
